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running away from the scrunching pain of reality.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
 ' sorry, but my heart isn't that strong to carry the amount of pain you had left for me.' hai guys, so sorry that i hadn't post for two months at least. guess its dead, again. ._. troubles came finding me. now that i can't study, i need to find something to vent my feelings onto. luckily, i still have you, threedeadroses. I don't know why i am still dwelling, even when i knew the truth. i mean i want to forget everything. really, but i can't bring myself to. my only question is that since your not ready and wounded, why drag me along and pull me into this miserable pain? just so you know, i am dying from hurting from all the wounds you had left for me. thanks so muchhh. I really love you. a lot. it was like a fairytale, and i thought it would have ended with a happy ever after ending. Not much to my delight though. I don't even know what your thinking, maybe everything was a mistake from the start. So why the hell do i still get jealous, and the longing for you, even though i hated you for how much pain you had brought for me? i don't know.  
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@ 11:02 PM
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@ 10:19 PM
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i don't like how i am feeling.
 you knew i wasn't good enough. your gentle soul didn't want to hurt me. you chose to give me false hopes, thinking it was a better choice. you wanted the best for us, thinking i will be able to achieve it. But in the end of the day, we know the crowd applauded for you. not us. Its time to face cruel reality. i ain't good enough for you. i will always be a back up, and extra by the stage,
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@ 9:13 AM
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Spell despair.
 You felt like you were on the moon, shining as bright as the stars around you.
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@ 7:29 AM
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Tornado meets volcano.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
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I guess the surviving rate is critical.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
 Concentration is the ability to think about absolutely nothing when it is absolutely necessary. I HAVE FINISH PERCYJACKSONWHOLESERIES IN 5DAYS. why does my parents still want me to borrow book!? -.- birthday in 5 days! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. SALTTTTTT! HEHEHHEHE. n'day gonna spend it with hong wen! MISS THEM!
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@ 6:25 AM
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Supermen can't fly.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
 Left with no tears. Just left with new strength; Tomorrow am going swimming, and the sushi-s i made just now was just plain awesome. HAHAHAHAH. Went out for xiang sheng just now with 20 other students. meet up with clarabelle first.Went subway for lunch. late and started running from marina square to national library. Sweat much man. she is velly cute, :). Watch the show, spent 4.90 on a bloody SCOOP of ice cream-.-. Bought Koi after that. went home. Like today. Okay, sleep tight!
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@ 6:56 AM
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Romantic Candlelight.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
 'When i was 3, everything that revolves around me was eating and sleeping. ' Haihai. i decided that since i can't post tomorrow, i shall post today. Went Qingwen's house to watch show, it was awesome. MINGHO AND NICKHUN IS BLOODY HELL HAWT. Guys, please stop me from using profanities! GODDAMNIT. okay, i seriously need to do my homework now. kay. bye.
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@ 6:53 AM
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i dont wanna talk it out.
 haihai!firstly, HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO JOY! 6P'09 lovesyou! :D. Tomorrows gonna be a great day for you! :) I am gonna order macdonalds tomorrow, its a deal! (: I haven't start on my maths homework! & haven't change the lyrics for the taiwan immersion trip. GRRRRRRRR. i am so tireddddd. okay, i want to go out and buy food, soo hungry. Bye .
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@ 12:14 AM
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I am sticking with this.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
 Okay, i am dead from linking people. probably ain't a good idea.Just a quick update, will do up my blog tomorrow, Bye :D.
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@ 9:21 AM
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Still thinking if i am worth it.
Friday, July 2, 2010
 ' im running dead without you' . Hai. i am dead from tagging 200photos. serve me right for thinking its a great idea to kill boredom. hahahah, had fun at wildwildwet with the whole school this week. so ya, tell me if its worth it. should i just ignore everything, being myself, holding back every tears, that always have the urge to rush out, or whatever shit it is. Cause i wanna be that girl who is worth the cries, worth the fight. i wanna be the girl who is strong in the heart. i wanna be the girl who is willing, to put her whole effort into what she needs to be focusing on. Illusional crap. Cause i know i tried, even if i failed. yea am a badass, then you are? i dont want to rant, really. i am just sick of it. i mean i know everybody changed. but what was the cause for everybody to change. everybody acting like they ain't no last time. They'll come blaming me like i kept my silence and that i am drifting apart from them. The truth is, I hate them being so chaotic. talk about united, we were never united. for as long as i know, everybody never stop bitching about each other. i don't wanna do something so low life. So i rather keep my mouth shut, i dont wannna be involve in a bitching session. Cause i know i'll rather them to dislike me, rather then me starting to dislike myself. yea and you run me down.
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@ 6:31 AM
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it hurts to think about you.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Oh tonight I'm feeling fine I'm alone just wasting time no Friday movie nights or romantic candlelight I'm just having conversations with the thoughts in my head all I hear are angels crying oh won't they just sing instead It would be wrong for me to say I don't need that girl by my side I don't need that girl in my life I don't want to talk it out or hold her when she cries I don't want to say she's my kind I don't want to say that she's mine I don't want to tell her that I love her more than life more than life, love her more than life Honestly, this won't do how is she doing? I tell myself I'm feeling swell but I know I'm such a fool I'll just take it as a new beginning but you know I don't feel that way who will take all this pain away? I know it's wrong for me to say Chorus Talk about a sin was the day I walked into the other side I would run back in I wouldn't waste no time I know it's wrong for me to say Chorus
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@ 2:15 AM
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When we collide, sparks fly.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
 ' & then i was thinking, who was i to you? ' sometime i wonder, why is everybody changing. Its a matter of fact that people do change, you can't keep them for the way you want them to be. its life, nobody can change that. different perspective makes a lot of a difference. every time i thought you could be trusted, you betrayed me with another single lie. & i was thinking, its hopeless. you wouldn't change for the better. Changing revolves everybody, its just whether your gonna make your fullest of it, or just plainly misusing it. i was thinking, why did i even waste time explaining to you. Telling you, your worth my tears, telling myself, she'll change. But all i know is that i was deceiving myself. & when i know the truth, it actually hurts. Really much. You really worth it? Were you worth all this? I don't know. Don't want to think about so much. Cause i know i've got more important stuffs to think of, to do. i ain't gonna stop for you, time's not stopping for me. i learnt to let go, learnt from sacrifices. I'll never satisfy you, so i shall stop. Its just plain deceiving. a facade.
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@ 8:07 PM
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the goal of inspiring.
 ' The only way to overcome is to hang in. Even I'm starting to believe that. '-Dan OBrien great, cause theres a big fat mosquito bite under my chin! i want an itouch. BADLY. alot of homework sia, and my dad's thumbdrive is screwed. i want school backkkkkkkk :) Tomorrow, am gonna swim again! can't wait for wildwildwet and freeeeeee doublecheezeburgerrrrr. I don't like the pickles in them though. had pizzzaaaaaaaa today! you know the ole ole one? i didn't get to it em! Weeeeeeeee, my hair feeels super soft. hohohoho, can he like reply me message! TSKKK, :(
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@ 6:41 AM
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I'm glad i tried my best, it seems as though im never tired of trying.
Friday, June 25, 2010
 'Practice as if your the worst , perform as if your the best.' oh yea, i am tired! Making an effort to post for two stalkers. Hahah, i get to go taiwan. :) Still averaging at 71.5 for academics. Lousy shit! Needs to get better. Ohyeaaaaaaa, next week going wildwildwet. the whole bloody school. thats what i call cool man. HAHAHAH. i am crazy & i am having spasm. Guess i should stop. Heeeeeee.
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@ 8:00 AM
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OHYEA, say scooby doo! (:
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Empty promises suck big time. wee , i like this font! hehehe. & yea, my sista is staring at the screen to see whether am i gonna do my project. Woohoo, Opennnn spy! Daddy say i can't go taiwan. Understood. but damn sad sia. :( Ya, i don't accept shit attitude. You treat me well, i treat you back with sincerity. You treat me like some bullshit, you don't expect me to smile yea? I learnt, and i had changed for the better. Maybe, you need no me anymore. Better off without me. okay, grumble no more. i just realize my headings for my post don't often match. hmmm.
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@ 5:43 AM
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Its suicidal.
 'The will to win is important, but the will to prepare is vital.' -Joe Paterno. you ain't worth no shit.
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@ 2:22 AM
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Motivated shitty me!
Friday, June 18, 2010
'It is a rough road that leads to the heights of greatness. '
-Seneca. I am gonna stay home and rot whole day. smart of me to not bring my training shoes. YESH AH! -.- . Theres this taiwan immersion trip thing! i wannna go badly. SERIOUSLY. but it is like bloody hell $1590. Its applicable for me, but only 35 students get to go. Priority to sec2&3s. Not fair. BOO. Im Bored. okay, this weekend, i need to finish : One maths worksheet. Contact time worksheet. English Power Point. History Power Point. Geography worksheet. History worksheet. i am buzzzzyyyyz. i am not gonna stalk him. ANZI GOTTA CONTROL YOURSELF. He is not gonna fall for you, get a life.
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@ 9:40 PM
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Oh oh oh my, oh oh my , gawd!
'I always felt that my greatest asset was not my physical ability, it was my mental ability. ' -Bruce Jenner Firstly, i wanna say, thankyou to Constance & stacey for spamming my holy Tagbox. HAHA, you won a place on my blog post lea!:> Anyway, first week of sportsschool was considered awesome, i miss it. Monday went for checkup. kidney still can make it! Still need to go for some tube surgery , minor! And blood test! Tiring! :(. & keifa, sorrry lo! i know me update slow laaaa. hehehe. i want to train. BADLY. 'Champions. they never stop training 'til they get it right.' i don't want to give up. No. I want to prove my stand. I know i can do it. Every training, every effort i put in counts. I don't like losing out. I have already lose out in terms of time & experience. I won't let that happen again.
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@ 6:38 AM
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i wish i was you. really.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Me and my boyfriend always tell eachother our wishes. really, i wish i was you. or maybe, should i say, bless you guys two.
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@ 11:56 PM
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Say ' cheese '.
 Seriously. i need to unpack and pack my bag. & do my science project. BLEABLOO.
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@ 3:22 AM
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I like jaden smith.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
 Went out with friends to watch the karate kid. SUPER AWESOME. i wanna catch it again! yay yay:D. And i suck at basketball now:( -daily motivation i'll try even harder every time, cause i won't limit myself. there ain't no limitations, as long as you believe you can soar.
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@ 4:16 AM
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It does not taste nice to eat spinach alone.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
' you didn't teach me how to forget you.'
hello! update on yesterday, kerstin birthday. so yea, HAPPY 13th! Today was fun with rachel cheang! hahah, Cut your hair short la please, be as screwed as my hair. Tomorrow going out with dodges, colan, guihui, and rachel cheang again for the karate kid :D. heheheh. JAYDENSMITH! Wish tomorrow come soon! :D.
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yay, my shortshortshort hair-.-.
Monday, June 7, 2010
oh yea, hair, you can go screw yourself.
i bet everybody wont be able to recognise me! yay! -.- okay , i shall get over it! :D. and yea, six more hours to kerstin birthday! muahahahaha! :D i think thats all. oh and i still can't forget bout my screwed hair. Boo.
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Smile and the whole world smiles with you!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
  ' If you were ever to notice me. ' Hello world! i wanna get gingerbread man and hearts ring. so cute! I just gave my smallsmallsmallllllllllll fingernails makeovers! hehehe. I need to cut to side fringe. Outgrown Bangs sucks! Tomorrows training Coming! yesyesyes:D. Oh, i wish mummy had put my christian name in my nric. so cute right! ANGEL. muahahahahha! okay sorry. anyway, two more days to kerstin birthday! heheheh! i wish i have longer nails. Boo. I need to find someone to study with me tomorrow. SERIOUSLY! Goddamnit. Oh and yea. got a new book from mph. Its called- Soul wisdom! helps me with all those negatives thoughts and stuffs. & yea, i need to go charge my phone-.-. -Daily Motivation Chuck away all those negatives thoughts. & just give it your all.
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I have had my share of pain. now its my turn to shine.
Friday, June 4, 2010
JADEN SMITH IS WAY TOO CUTE!
hehehehehehehe. The movie can come now. LIKE PLEASE! Grrrrrr. Nevermind. hmm. 5weekdays have pass, and i haven't even unpack. Oh great. Science module test! History and science project. okay you know what, i am making a schedule here. 5thJun,saturday. - Going out to meet saffron, Sean koh and Jingyuan. Help to find their performance clothes for teachers day performance. Get swimsuit from saffron, highlights- Buy mcflurry. 6thJun, Sunday. - Go for swimming lessons. After that, study for science module! Arrange time with sarah batrisiya when go science center for history project for military tanks. Arrange time with science group members( Christy, Ayu & keifa) go school and do science project. 7thJun, Monday. - Go for training. Lunch out with trackers, go back home, rest. Go National library, study. Dipna's birthday! :D. 8thJun, Tuesday.- MY DATES BIRTHDAY! kerstin:D. Go for training. Birthday bash for kerstin. Go kerstin house swim :D then Go home. 9thJun, Wednesday.- Go for training. After training, Go home. study! 10thJun, Thurday.- Go for training! Go lunch with trackers, then Go home study! Go shop! :D. 11thJun, Friday .- Go for training ! After training, meet up with rachel cheang and others, Go watch the karate kid! :D 12thJun, Saturday.- NIGHT OUT. :D. Study in the morning:D. 13thJun, Sunday.- Go for swimming lessons, Go home, pack up, go dine out with friends, go school! Wahlao, alot to plan seyh. and 4 more days :D. hehehe. todays post gonna be dang long yea. Hmm, Todays training was tiring. After doing hurdles do 300m , timing! ugh. Happy that i cut of 3 secs. 50sec, Aiming for 48! :D - daily Motivation. Our strongest Opponents are ourselves. So first lets removed the fear conquer us, Let passion drives us through our training, Let Us Exceed our limit and make out our own piece of sky.
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@ 12:51 AM
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Watch me fly!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
 the karate kid is super uber cute! AHHHHHHHHHHHH! i wanna watch sia!:D and he sang in 'never say never', SUPER CUTE LA PLEASE. hahahaha. i want to WATCH. :D ' knock me with a 2kg medicine ball and i still can't forget you=.=' Hello guys. i wannt the ixus 105 canon digital compact camera NOW. boo. i am bored. had training just now. tough yea. tired much. & yeas, 5 days and still counting! hahaha, kerstin:D. Tomorrow my date again la. :D and i want a hot pink luggage. thats all. heeeheeeheee. :D. -daily motivation watch me fly with my own strength. passion is something really important, and i know it will last.
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i say i'll be the one to paint my life with colours. and add a bit of sugar yea.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
 'bless you. Smile more. cause someone got me learning, that i need not have your love to satisfy, i only need you to be happy.'Hello guys! and yea 6 days more to kerstin's birthday, 13 more days to sister birthday!:D Today trained with the hurdles group! We did 6 x 200m hurdles. tiring dong. but increases my endurance so its okay!(: Then, went out with keifa, shuethwei, jiaxi to orchard! Oh yea, sorry, I remember wrong place. if i am not wrong, i actually wanted to bring you guys to far east plaza. tsktsk. HAD FUN TODAY. :) Readaye for tomorrows training, hehehehe. Learning the lyrics for the chinese song :D. peace yo! -Daily Motivation. 400m hurdles. i am going to do that in two years time. Armswing gotta be straight and proper. leg strides gotta be better and bigger. Endurance gotta be stronger. Speed gotta increase. Come on, i can do it. Got to believe in yourself. Cause i can do it. yes i can.
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Screw me.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
'It so doesn't help looking out at the crowd, looking hard for you, while never ever getting to spot you.'
hello! yea world, i am a despo trying to revive my blog. Sorry for mia-ing again. It wasn't on purpose. i am lazy. Today was great. Trained with hurdles group. then, went to causeway point with Lesa, Keifa, Raja, Latifa. Awesome! played around metro, muahahah, then they went back first. meet up with Sarah tan! hahaha, your way awesome! bring me around. Thanks for the high waist, A&S, and YEA, thanks FOR GETTING MY EAR PIERCED! :D. And yea, love can't be force, choose how you wanna handle it, i will be behind your back yea. -Daily motivation. and yea life, gimme a bit hope la. determination. i am standing strong. Hunger for success. Grow it more. sprinkle it with care and determination. and someday it will blossom into a beautiful sunflower.
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